Some-days & Sometimes
I'm writing this letter at 10:30 p.m. with drowsy eyes, exhausted from an online class that seemed to take forever to finish. I was going to skip this week's letter as I wasn't feeling particularly inspired, but I'm glad I didn't let that stop me, so here we are.
It has been a staggering ride this week. Life as we know it, is in a huge chaos. I am completely unable to inspire you because even this user is in need of the inspiration you seek.
There are two options that face you each morning when you wake up: "Fight for your life or allow life to show you who the boss is”.
Every day is annoyingly long.
On certain days, I resemble a minister's promised words way too much, and on other days; I am just myself in my "opinionated" world. Fighting one or two wars, tackling my issues head-on and pushing them aside while attempting to be more independent than I am, and comprehending things that my heart cannot.
On some days, I'm just like the music that keeps playing in my head, while on other days, my lyrical search is all about me.
On some days, I'm just me in my never-ending loop, while on other days, I'm like the book that I've read and understood.
Some days, I am far too much like a woman who knows what she wants, and some days I am all about myself and my hopeless rants.
Making peace with my inabilities, Chasing dreams at a growing pace, Celebrating myself and embracing the atmosphere of thoughts and works about which no one cares. They believe I must be a paradox and that I might need some help.
Oh! What lady moves in, out, and around different realms?
How dare I conquer the mountains? How dare I go into the deepest trench?
I'm not even close to being someone they can decode.
However, none of these satisfy my desire for "a heroic resemblance" to whatever I pent as I never actually had a perfect day.
I hoped to change my viewpoint and undo past mistakes on a daily basis. But "some days" taught me, and "Sometimes" stated it best, that there's no shame in being a human who loves herself every day and every time with a "honest attempt."
Until I write to you again, maybe on Monday. Emphasis on the “Maybe”.
Be safe till then
Love,
Fayvourebirth.
I can relate so much with this story....
Some days,it sucks, you feel nothing, just there feeling uninspired
Some days, you feel so energized ,the spirit is there to do more
It is well, most importantly, let's not lay down our guide even when feeling down, stand up and head face up, we just must keep progressing and moving
It is well😊
Even the minister needs to be ministered to.
I think I relate to how you felt when writing this stack.
Somedays, your life feels like the spot light is on you and somedays, it seems like you aren't even in existence.
Somedays, you feel the energy of making yourself seen and somedays, you'll prefer to shut the noise and door just to be alone with your thoughts.
Somedays, you there are millions of thoughts flying through your mind and you're way overboard trying to capture those thoughts in words and someday, you can't even get to pen a sentence...
Someone who feels this way, without proper understanding and false judgment by others, you'll probably be referred to as someone with schizophrenia but they don't understand...they don't understand that being sober sometimes is what you actually needed to power up and recharge.
There is dedication, commitment and consistency.
You're dedicated to your weekly writes.
You're equally commitment to your weekly writes as you promised us in the genesis of this journey...and we can see it from today's stack. I can imagine your emotional state writing today's episode but finally, you wrote something.
Finally, consistency. Please keep up with it. I believe you'll come back years later to read your stacks and you'll be glad you didn't stop writing.
Remember a word a friend once said. It just takes one song, one movie, one act, one write, one poem, one performance...to explode and when you do, people will begin going back in history to find out how long and far the journey had been and when they do, they'll be glad they did cos they'll find out you have a rooted history.
This is me sending you flowers to cheer you up🌹
Thank you for this week's write.
P.S. I was anticipating it😉