MONTHS LATER, AND I'M STILL HERE!

I am currently undergoing a crazy phase, so I have decided to write all about it until I feel better.

I remembered starting "My Heart To Yours"! As a casual, vibe, and chill channel with no clarity or defined purpose, I had no specific idea of what to expect. But then I started regardless, and I want to thank you for your love and support. You are the fuel behind my creative juices, as well as the reason why I keep sharing my thoughts and ideas with you.

I'm currently having bad imposter syndrome, and it's been bearing down on me. To think that as I hit 100+ subscribers here, I'm expected to feel elated, proud, and happy, right? But it's the other way around.

The truth is that writing is difficult, and I'm not sure what to write today, not because of the words themselves, but because of the vulnerability that comes with it. When I write, I am not simply putting words on a page; I am sharing a part of me. And sometimes, the words are not captivating or polished. Sometimes it's awkward, confusing, or simply messy... 

"What if they find out I have no idea what I'm doing?"

"What if my writing is actually terrible?"

"What if I'm not good enough?" "I hope they will love and read what I cook up next." 

Alot of “What If” and doubts…

I have this strange feelings from time to time. And during those days, I find myself questioning every part of my existence and establishing that many things are wrong. But maybe that is acceptable. Maybe that's what writing is supposed to be: messy, genuine, and unfiltered. You see, I've been so caught up in trying to sound "right" that I've forgotten what it's like to just let go and let the words flow as they do. 

Today I realized that imposter syndrome is not something to be embarrassed of, but rather something to recognize and overcome. I learnt that it's normal to have doubts about myself, but they shouldn't define me.

It's a feeling many of us know all too well. The fear of being discovered, of being found out, of not being good enough. But I know I won't let this unwelcome guest take over. As I move forward on this writing journey, I want to remember why I started—for the love of it, the joy of crafting stories, of transporting readers to new worlds. I want to remember that it's okay to be imperfect, that it's okay to make mistakes, and that it's okay to not have all the answers. I want to remember that my worth is not measured by my writing but by my courage to keep writing despite my fears and doubts.

 So here I am, trying to do just that. To write how I talk even when the words don't come out perfectly. Because, ultimately, that is what makes writing valuable. It is the connection, the shared experience, and the sense that I am not alone in my thoughts and struggles.