LIOR ✨

To You, I Daily Cling

A Little dark story about myself that will lead us into today's letter, so please stay with me.

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I'm the loneliest sweet smiling girl you'll ever meet. I always smile because I feel sad!  Isn't it shocking? Maybe not.

I've got a lot of experience on myself, so you won't notice. I put on my lovely façade and show up smiling, so you don't see the demons, hear the falsehoods, or feel the weight that's crushing me within. I pretend to be an ordinary girl who smiles a lot and act like all is well. And in an attempt to keep people from seeing me as a depressed girl, I strive to make everyone around me feel joyful and comfortable. I'm this good #inner-chuckles

You see, anxiety has held me hostage for many years. My anxiety and I are like friends with benefits; we have no feelings for one another. Depression is deception; it's me telling you I'm Fine while I'm actually dying, and insomnia has a lovely way of making the moon feel like an ideal companion.

I feel empty, lonely, broken, and betrayed. Every person I've met has given me reasons not to trust or like people. I just want to feel loved and cherished, yet I feel like I'm stuck in a box with little hope of survival. I go to bed every night knowing that everything I say and do is a lie. #dontjudgeme

I've experienced envy, my personality has been misunderstood, been charged with guilt in my heart, and I've been bullied. There was a moment when I thought I was the most sought-after person on the planet, this made me felt very uncomfortable and scared and all I wanted to do was to disappear.

I always hear my mother say, "When you are in trouble, always look for a way in the light, and you will find peace."

I grew up in the church, so I know I was loved before the world even existed. Before I was born and my life began, God predestined me. But I still had doubts in my heart! Dark shadows were placed over me, keeping me blind. Tired of the never-ending war against the enemy, I sought safety, but it was never reached. I was in a position where my soul felt dead inside, and I couldn't see a way out.

Then I came across some scriptures in the Bible.

John 10:9; “I am the door; by me, if any man enters in, he shall be saved and go in and out and find pasture."

Christ described salvation to walking through the door rather than climbing some steps. It is entering through a gate to accept His gift of mercy and forgiveness..

Psalm 27:1 states; "The Lord is my light and my salvation (Adonai Ori v'Yishi); whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?"

I came to see that God's light served as a strong symbol of hope and direction for me. His light shone brightly in those dark corners of my life, protecting and guiding me to safety and peace.

Everything I said at the beginning of this letter was my identity before I met "LIOR"

I was blinded by sin, weighed down by sadness and worry, searching for refuge that never came, and seeking approval from others that eventually broke me. I never imagined I could recover from an old and devastating trauma, but everything changed when I met LIOR.

Christ appeared when all hope was lost. His grace granted me sight. He came when death had become my only host.

Christ came, and sin's power was dealt a blow. LIOR shines brightly, filling my entire being with peace and He gave me Purpose.

The grip of depression and sin on me has diminished. Christ is strong in me, and I know it; He refreshes me daily.

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"Light in your mind is faith; light in your heart is knowledge; light in your soul is wisdom. Light in your life is God," — Matshona Dhliwayo.

God's light is necessary for our lives to survive and beat on. Jesus serves as the light that shows us the way when we're lost, offers us courage when we're afraid, and provides us strength when we're weak. This light is always present; it is just waiting for us to recognize it and direct our attention toward it. You will experience peace and Joy if you concentrate on that light.

Discovering this light and trusting it to guide me is like believing in a name. And that name, "Yahweh,"  "LIOR," and "Adonai Ori v'Yishi," took away all my guilt and shame. 

His death is my life; in Him I became New.

Now in my spirit, there is His too. 

I no longer pledge my faith or trust in earthly things, I no longer seek validation from people.

Grace and mercy are now my heart's anthem since Jesus became my soul's eternal reason!

I have found my peace and purpose since I met LIOR!

You can do the same today.

Embrace the light. Embrace life!!

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Happy Easter! Christ is Risen and Now He dwells in Me. Glorrrrryyyy 🕊️🕊️

Love,

Fayvourebirth.