DISAPPOINTMENT

It hit me in the gut like a locomotive.

As much as I wanted to believe he’d change, deep down, I knew: he’d never choose me. Not really. Not fully.

Not the best way to start a Monday morning, but I’ll say it anyway: It’s time to let go! Leave, give up, vamos!

There was a time I thought I’d found the one. My person. The one I could laugh with, dream with, and build memories with. I mean, when he took me out, we had a great time.

He’d whisper how much he appreciated me, did little things to show he cared, and for a while, I felt seen. I held on to those moments like they were promises, convincing myself they meant more than they did. But deep down, I knew. He was never truly in it. Not for the long haul. Not for me.

It’s a painful truth to accept—that someone you’ve invested so much time and heart into doesn’t feel the same way. That you’ve been holding onto a connection that only you were fully committed to.

And yet, I stayed. I stayed because I kept hoping. Hoping that one day, he’d wake up and realize what we could be. Hoping that he’d finally choose me, not as an option but as his person. But the truth? He wasn’t going to.

This story isn’t just a love lesson. I learned it again in my walk with God, watching people, time and again, chase after things that would never choose them. Chasing after vanity, temporary pleasures, and worldly accomplishments that could never truly satisfy.

We often convince ourselves that the things of this world will fulfill us. We chase after wealth, status, relationships, and material possessions, hoping they’ll fill the void inside us. They promise so much—happiness, security, recognition—but ultimately leave us longing for more.

God, however, stands patiently by, calling us to Him. He whispers His love and faithfulness, shows us His care in the small, quiet moments, and waits for us to see that He is the only one who will truly choose us. Fully. Unconditionally. Time and again, He beckons, “Come to me. Let go of the things that hold you back. I’m here, waiting for you.”

But we hold on to the fleeting promises of the world. We think, “Just one more thing. One more milestone. Then I’ll feel complete.” But the world’s treasures are like shifting sand. They look solid from a distance, but when you lean on them, they crumble, leaving you empty and disillusioned.

I’ve been there. I’ve been the one pouring my energy into things that couldn’t pour back into me. I’ve been the one striving for achievements, relationships, and recognition, thinking they’d make me whole. But they didn’t. They couldn’t.

The hardest part of letting go isn’t the act itself—it’s the fear of the unknown. It’s the fear of releasing what you’ve been clinging to, even when it’s not good for you, because you’re afraid of what life might look like without it. But when you finally let go, you make room for something greater:

God’s purpose, His peace, and His presence.

God doesn’t just want us to stop chasing the world; He wants us to run toward Him. To see that He is the one who truly satisfies. That His love is unchanging, His promises are sure, and His plans for us are good. He isn’t asking for perfection; He’s asking for surrender. For trust. For us to believe that He is enough.

When I finally let go of the things that couldn’t fulfill me, I felt a void I wasn’t sure would ever be filled. But slowly, it was. God filled it with His love, His guidance, and His peace. And in His presence, I found what I had been searching for all along—a sense of worth, purpose, and belonging that no worldly thing could ever provide.

The process wasn’t easy. There were moments of doubt, moments when I wondered if I’d made a mistake by letting go. But every time I turned to God, He reassured me. Through His Word, through prayer, through the kindness of others, He reminded me that His plans for me were far greater than anything I’d left behind.

So if you find yourself chasing after things that leave you empty, take a step back. Ask yourself why. And remember this: the things of this world will never fully choose you. They will never love you unconditionally. But God will.

The beauty of surrender is that it isn’t the end—it’s a beginning. A beginning of a life rooted in purpose, in hope, and in the assurance that you are fully known and fully loved by the Creator of the universe.

In the end, life is too short to chase after things that don’t nourish your soul. You deserve the love and purpose that only God can give. Choose Him, because He has already chosen you, fully and completely.

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God wants us to run toward Him. To see that He is the one who truly satisfies.